How Rebuilding a Boat Affected My Mental Health
While the idea of restoring a boat may conjure images of serene seas and smooth sailing, the reality can often be quite different. I was aware of how intense of a boat project I was taking on when I began while rebuilding my Wharram Catamaran, KIKAPU, but now (about 4 months after departure) I have an even better understanding of how much weight I took on. The process of rebuilding a boat can present a multitude of challenges that can take a toll on one's mental health. I’ve tried to be as open as possible about my struggles throughout my entire journey and in this blog post, we'll explore some of the ways in which boat restoration can negatively impact mental well-being and discuss strategies for navigating these rough waters.
Overwhelming Stress:
The sheer magnitude of a boat restoration project can quickly become overwhelming. From sourcing materials to mastering new skills, the list of tasks can seem never-ending. As deadlines loom and unexpected complications arise, stress levels can skyrocket, leading to feelings of anxiety and helplessness. The weight of responsibility can feel like an anchor, dragging down morale and sapping energy.
Financial Strain:
Boat restoration is often a costly endeavor, with expenses quickly adding up for materials, tools, and professional assistance. For many, budget constraints can pose a significant source of stress, especially if unexpected expenses arise or if the project takes longer than anticipated. The pressure to stay within budget can lead to feelings of financial insecurity and strain relationships, adding another layer of complexity to an already challenging process.
Personally, as a freelance worker, I have always struggled in making consistent money. I spent years funneling every extra cent into savings to take this project on, and luckily things came through to make it work. Often, I will hear people talking about how this “necessary” part is “only” $600 or something of the likes…basically the same as what I made in a month teaching dance. In the moment, I generally just nod and disregard what the armchair sailors recommend, but it always hits me a little hard when my struggle to earn is so personal.
Frustration and Setbacks:
Despite careful planning and meticulous attention to detail, setbacks and frustrations are inevitable in any restoration project. Whether it's a stubborn bolt that refuses to budge or a mistake that requires redoing hours of work, these setbacks can be demoralizing and erode confidence. The constant cycle of progress and setback can take a toll on one's mental resilience.
Social Isolation:
The time and energy required for boat restoration can often lead to social isolation. Long hours spent in the workshop or boatyard can take away from time spent with friends and family, leading to feelings of loneliness and isolation. Additionally, the specialized nature of boat restoration can make it difficult to find others who share your passion, further exacerbating feelings of social disconnectedness.
When I moved out to work on the boat, I had just left a group of friends who weren’t supportive of my endeavor. Add that to everybody and their cousin telling me how stupid I was for taking my project on and I totally withdrew from the social scene. Furthermore, such a large project and so many things happening at once, my brain became so overwhelmed that it was difficult to even hold normal conversations. It was a very dark isolating time and only now am I comfortable and confident enough to meet new people. Luckily, I did have a few good friends and close family members that I was able to talk to even when things went upside down.
Unrealistic Expectations:
For many, the dream of restoring a boat is fueled by romanticized notions of adventure and freedom on the open water. However, the reality of the restoration process can fall short of these expectations, leading to feelings of disappointment and disillusionment. As the project drags on and challenges mount, it can be difficult to maintain motivation and enthusiasm for the project, leading to a sense of defeat.
For a long time, I was partners on my boat so I could maintain my marina slip. Going into the project I had dreams that I wasn’t able to achieve due to the limitations of a partial ownership. That disappointment was made more evident after setting sail and realizing that I really would have loved to have made the changes initially.
While the prospect of restoring a boat may be enticing, it's important to acknowledge the potential challenges it can pose to mental health. From overwhelming stress and financial strain to frustration and social isolation, boat restoration can take a toll on even the most resilient individuals. However, by recognizing these challenges and implementing strategies for self-care and support, it's possible to navigate the choppy waters of boat restoration while safeguarding mental well-being. Whether it's seeking professional help, reaching out to friends and family, or simply taking a step back to prioritize self-care, remember that your mental health is just as important as the boat itself.
